CALLING CPS!!/ A YEAR UPDATE !
Jul 7, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lOEJAA6qP84

hey you guys and welcome to Sunday I
know it's kind of late but I was sitting
here and I was like you know I just I've
been going through some things
excuse me it's the ice machine I have
been kind of going through a few things
and I was feeling kind of down and I
thought you know I the best place for me
to come is here and some people probably
are like why would you come to YouTube
and talk to strangers about your
feelings and and I do get that question
quite often and honestly it's like why
wouldn't I want to come on and talk with
you guys the ones that I have talked to
almost every single day and shared every
ups-and-downs aspects of my life for the
last year and it takes me back because
I'm almost at my one-year anniversary of
when I decided to make a complete change
in my life in so many ways and that
marks July 11th of 2018 is when I chose
to take my life back and start working
on my health and start working on my
weight and start working on my life in
general and through the course of the
year I have lost 78 pounds with a few
pounds gained back and lost in gain back
and lost but I've been able to keep off
a majority of all the weight I'm gonna
say I think altogether I have gained
back I have stumbled between I think
it's been 20 pounds going up and down up
and down the last couple months and I
you know there really isn't a reason
there's no excuse
other than I've just fallen lazy and and
and that's just being honest truth and
you know choosing a lifestyle that
obviously isn't going to bring me
weight loss so as I've been kind of
going over today and just thinking of
like where my life has been this last
year and all that has come up and
changed within this time frame there has
been so many changes everything from my
family you know growing and getting
bigger and my mental health getting so
much better and being able to see so
much clearer of things that I didn't
know from the past that I do know now
that I can take those tools and put them
into my future
also the the struggles of losing weight
and also I have to say that being on
YouTube for the last year has given me
enough time to really get connected with
quite a few youtubers myself and just
like anybody else I'm a viewer just like
you are I am a youtuber and I choose to
share my journey in my life but I also
am a viewer and I like to go on and
watch channels of all sorts of things
there isn't one one particular thing
that I am truly stuck on like all about
weight loss like that's just not how I
am I like a variety and when I say
variety i watch craft videos i watch
life vlogging videos i watch weight loss
videos i watch mental health videos i
watch animal videos i mean there are so
many different types of videos that i
like to watch
but in the realm of it all as i'm a
viewer i also see that i think of
certain things about these youtubers
that I watch whether it be ooh I don't
know if I completely agree with what
they're doing or wow they really brought
light to me as something that I didn't
think about myself and usually I'm gonna
say 9 out of 10 I am a very quiet viewer
I don't talk very often I'm only a mod
in one of the channels excuse me I'm
having some tea
I'm only a mod in one of those channels
and other than that I am a quiet viewer
I have my opinion but you know sometimes
opinions don't always have to be said
sometimes it's nice to just withhold and
not say your opinion because maybe your
opinions gonna ring them at the wrong
time
and I'm not seeing that because people
obviously have opinions about me and my
family and I get told quite often how
bad of a person I am helped out of a
mother I am too how good of a parent I
am and a good wife and on and on there's
always the highs and the lows to
choosing to make you to be a living that
I make making you to be the choice of my
work and it takes a lot of dedication
and a lot of patience with that I am a
full-time stay-at-home mom I also helped
my husband run a full time car business
and so there are days that I am just
worn out I am just physically worn down
does that make me a bad person
absolutely not absolutely not because I
don't think that there's any parent out
here that would tell you that they never
get tired of their family lives their
family never get tired of the kids never
get tired of being a mom sometimes being
a mom is overrated and when I say that
maybe I'm choosing the wrong words but
you know when you have the
responsibilities of your home I don't
have to cook that is the one thing I
don't have to do but I do clean and I do
do most everything behind the scenes
I don't film it because I have to cover
and to cover and clean and do those
things it's not as comfortable as if I
could just be in my regular clothes
and just do my videos if that was the
case you guys would see video every
single day five times a day because I'm
always busy but it doesn't mean I have
to film every single thing yes like I
have explained on my live video a couple
days ago there was a video up that I had
posted where Omar it was not espera it
was Omar he is four years old four and a
half actually was interrupting me while
I was recording and we are really
working with Omar on learning to be
respectful and you know you don't
interrupt when anybody is speaking you
have to wait your turn or if it's an
emergency you tap and you get their
attention but you don't just blur out
and expect the person to stop everything
they're doing and just talk to you
because if I did that I would never have
ever have a conversation even a
conversation within my own brain if that
was the case because my children would
never know that there's a boundary there
and at this prime age that they are it
is very crucial to start teaching them
these things he has a year and he will
be going into school I don't want my
child going into school and being that
disruptive disrespectful child that when
the teacher sees him coming through the
door thinking oh my god here comes Omar
I don't want that I want my child to be
one of those children that go into the
class know their manners know what their
responsibilities are and go for full
force into the learning but I don't want
to have to take away time from learning
to have to learn the material of respect
because a cheap teacher is going to stop
them just as much if they're talking to
a class they're not going to allow a
child to speak out and just blurt out
something in the class they're gonna
stop them and say that's not okay you
wait for your turn or you raise your
hand
and then you ask but in this situation
I'm not a teacher I don't have a class
he doesn't have to raise his hand but he
doesn't have to disrespect and be rude
and interrupt even if it is me filming
my family knows that this is my job when
I'm doing that there are times that mom
needs to work and you are okay to
entertain yourself my children are good
with entertaining themselves nine out of
ten would you guys like to see what's
going on right now okay my children are
right next to me as I'm filming stop
please
filming and of course they know I'm
filming and they need my attention so
yes I sternly told Omar to stop
interrupting me he was being rude and
that I was filming and he needed to move
out of my way because he was literally
sitting there pinching my stomach
because he was mad that I would not
listen to him you guys didn't see that
part because I wasn't filming him I
wasn't filling filming the situation you
only seen what you seen of my face and
that was it
you didn't know anything else going on
below but that was your opinion and you
guys very nicely very nicely and clearly
spoke your opinion and I 100% I'm okay
with you guys speaking your opinion from
whoever has one but I think that it kind
of goes too far when somebody actually
contacts CPS and is going to report me
for child abuse because I am teaching my
child manners and teaching them that it
is not okay to pinch to get their
attention and that they needed to move
out of the way and I told him why he
needed to move out the way because I am
recording as a parent I think all
parents have those days where they're
gonna lash out more than others
that day I had just come home from the
hospital that night is the night prior I
was tired I didn't feel good I was
irritated and when he's pinching me and
I'm already sore it's not a good feeling
I think that me and my husband go above
and beyond with our parenting I think
that we do our ultimate best I was not
raised in a very good environment to
know any more than what I've already
taught myself when I say that I'm not
putting down the people that raised me
because they were different but as
having a mother and being a mother are
two different things
I did not have a mother I had caretakers
but I did not have a mother I did never
truly had a father
I had men that stepped in to take kind
of my dad's place but it's never the
same my husband on the other hand has an
amazing mother she is amazing and has
taught him many skills with patience and
things like that unfortunately I didn't
have that I didn't have that chance to
be taught those things I'd had to teach
myself I have cared for children since I
was 13 years old
I have literally been parenting children
since I was 13 years old this is not
something that has come overnight and I
don't think anything that I have done
with my children or will do with my
children is considered abuse I think
it's sad that there are people out there
that are literally going to take the the
time away from CPS to to do an
investigation on a family that literally
has nothing to be investigated for
taking that time away from a family that
truly may need CPS help and maybe taking
away from a child that truly me
the help because they're being truly
abused but to be selfish and put my
family and my children in a situation
that is uncalled for
absolutely 100% selfish on that person's
behalf do I do I walk in fear or walk
with my shoulders down to watch over my
back because of that comment absolutely
not not I would welcome them into my
home any time of the day I have nothing
to hide and most know that there is
nothing to hide with my family but for
people that think that using that threat
will scare somebody that's truly sad
because you're truly truly truly truly
not just affecting the youtuber but
you're affecting the children and if you
are so concerned about the children why
would you make false accusations to draw
attention to something that's not even
it's not even relevant or needed to be
brought up so it just kind of brought me
to where where iam and what I'm doing
where is my channel running but I think
having Olly be a part of my channel is a
very good key thing that I want that to
be there he like I said brings out so
many good things in the channel that I
think that it's a it's an importance to
have him be a part of it I still am
focusing on my weight don't get me wrong
that's that's one of the things that I
am focusing on and it's kind of nice
somebody seen me the other day I hadn't
seen him for a couple months and this
person was like have you been losing
weight and I'm like no I just you know I
always say no just because you know I'm
like no and they're like you look like
you've lost a lot of weight and what
that meant to me was like wow somebody
actually noticed the hard work that I've
been putting
I don't see it because I'm my own self
I'm always gonna see myself big I don't
think that that's gonna change my family
sees me every single day so of course
that isn't gonna change either but
having that said to me boosted my
confidence but not only just boosted my
confidence this is like hmm yeah I'm
still on the right track I'm still doing
it is it coming off slow you're darn
right it is not because I don't want it
to I want it to just all fall off
overnight but clearly that ain't gonna
happen it's gonna take work and I'm I'm
a work in progress and I'm continuing to
work I am continuing to work with my
therapist every single week on Mondays I
go to my therapy my counseling sessions
I recently you know got Sebastian my pet
skunk to be a part of my emotional
support because I needed that and I ate
he has brought so much joy to me along
with my kids it has been an amazing
amazing transition for me and I feel
like because of that it's also helped me
get out of this hole that I felt like I
was kind of sinking into but I just
really want to say thank you to
everybody that has been on my channel
and that is joining my channel I just
want to say a big thanks you don't know
what all you have done for me with all
the comments and the messages and the
emails and the gifts and the love and
support and encouragement that my family
and I have received is beyond what I
ever expected a year ago I did not
expect a year ago to be where I am today
I didn't expect a year ago to become a
full-time youtuber and be a full-time
mom and be a full-time wife and
everything in between and also have time
to work on my weight my mental health
and just have time for myself but I
managed to do it to the best of my
ability
but I can't say thank you enough to each
of you and that is why the one way that
I can show my gratitude to you guys to
do the monthly giveaways where I get to
give back to you guys
yes I know it's only one person times
how many you guys are on my channel but
it's the one way that I can give back
and to let you guys know that I could
not be doing this without you guys I
would not have a channel if it wasn't
for you guys I am very very grateful and
thankful for each and every one of you
so anyways I just wanted to jump on and
just do a little slope talk
it's nothing exciting but I but I am
hoping to come back soon with another
fun video me and oli have one that is
brewing in the mix as we speak but we
will be getting it up and I'm gonna be
doing a Q&A; video so that will probably
come on after this video and I also have
another video coming up of Sebastian in
his little bath time but I just again
want to say thank you guys so much for
staying tuned watching my videos being a
part of my family I couldn't be more
grateful love you guys and I'll talk to
you guys soon bye bye